It's really hurts me!!

Actually I already forget about this thing that told by my friend
but dont know why with a sudden my mind remind me of this.

When I heard about this thing, I really feel embarassed and sad.
Never thought that you will go spread around to so many people
Though all the people that you spread is whom I know
But actually this hurt me more and make me feel very very very embarassed

I get to know this when I try to offer to help
But they told me you told them cannot rely on me
I was really really sad
I know you are much more better on this thing
But it doesnt mean that others people cannot do as well as you

Had you ever thought of if some day other people talk about you this way?
Will you feel good? happy? enjoyment?
I knew you had experience of people talk bad about you
Though is not the same kind of thing

But yet the outcome is the same
Is just like someone are using a knife to stab into your heart

Maybe I myself make this look like a big matter
Maybe the person that told me has a very serious look
that make me feel that is really a big deal

I dont know why everytime I still treat you so good
Even I myself know you are what type of person
And tell you what
Other than this thing
I had heard about the thing you talk about me from others
I just couldnt believe that those thing come out from your mouth

Sighz
Aint dont know why you must treat me this way
Next time dont offer your help to me
if you are not willing to do so
And let me tell you what
The thing that I had heard today
It's really hurts me!!!