May 2019 be a new beginning for me - day 4

Today is pay day which is also the month with the highest tax due to bonus. For the past few years, he shared this joy with me, also whine a bit due to high tax amount. We also will treat each other a meal using the bonus payout. This year, I wonder who did he shared this good news & joy with? 

Today worked quite late in office due to night call. As I was walking to my car, I feel emptiness in me. Perhaps it's period (yes I blame it on period again and it's finally here). 

When I was planning trip with my friends, I don't have the excitement like how I use to plan for ours. 

Maybe I'm still affected. I pray this feeling will gradually decrease.